Why I’m Here

I’m starting this post today, because I realized I need someone else to talk to, other then myself. Or the always adorable but not so good conversationalist 2 and 1 year old daughters whom I spend my day with.

This morning started like any other. My husband rolled out of bed at 5 am to head off to work as a pediatric resident. Followed by the pitter patter of little feet into the room at 5:45. By 6:00, it’s just me and both girls lying in bed. At least, I’m lying there wishing for more sleep as they roll all over me asking for breakfast. We all roll out of bed and I herd them out the door toward the kitchen when I realize – I stink. When was the last time I showered. Was it three days ago maybe four?  I can’t remember, the days are a blur. They always say the days are long but the years are fast. It is so true for no other reason then I look back at yesterday and struggle to remember what even happened.

But anyway, the day moved on with breakfast, a walk to the park, playing outside and picking fresh tomatoes from the garden, lunch, more playing outside, dinner, daddy coming home, and kiddos to bed. Followed by the couple hours to spend with my husband and then re-group for tomorrow.

This stay at home mom thing is new to me and I’m still learning how to give the girls a routine and consistency but also provide them with new activities. I’m still learning to keep my patience when my 2 year old is screaming for no reason for the 36th time that day. I’m still learning a balance between making time for myself and time for those sweet kiddos. So this is just about me – learning to be, well, a mom.